By Wellness Official

Leah Barros: Empowering My Inner Healer

This story is part of a series from graduates of Wellness Official Founder Millana Snow’s Integrative Energy Healing Training

My calling to guide people on their spirituality journey came after I had an experience that left me unsure of what life had in store for me and completely untrusting of the world. I felt rudderless, like I was randomly floating through life with nothing to keep me grounded. I experienced anxiety every single day for what seemed like an eternity and I didn’t know how to fix it. The only thing I knew was that it wasn’t sustainable, and that I needed to find a way out. I was willing to try anything. Lucky for me, one of the first things I tried was meditation and it just clicked.

I couldn’t get enough, so I started going deeper and read about spirituality, emotional balance, mindfulness, and healing. These teachings then led me to the power of Divine energy, crystal healing, Chakras, African Spirituality and ritual practices.

One key takeaway from all my readings was that I had to be an active participant in my healing. I couldn’t simply rely on my sister, therapist, or friends to get me through this painful period. I knew the only way to heal in a healthy way was to go through the pain – not around it. I had to plow through with a clear and open heart.

Journeying through the pain with the intention of healing and growth allowed me to be comfortable with vulnerability. It allowed me to open myself to a level of self-love I didn’t know was possible. It allowed me to surrender to life and receive all of the beautiful gifts it has to offer. It allowed me to begin the process of healing from childhood trauma. Most significantly, it taught me how important it is to nurture my mind, body, and soul.

One of the beautiful side effects of tapping into my personal power was the gift of intuition. I always had a strong intuition, but I was my own worst enemy and didn’t trust it. By doing the work to heal and connect with the Divine within me, I was able to strengthen my connection to Source, which helped me trust myself and others. Trusting my intuition has taken me down some beautiful rabbit holes I never would’ve had the nerve to explore in the past. One of them being, Millana Snow’s Integrative Energy Healing Training.

I found it when I was messing around on Instagram and came across a post from Millana. I didn’t really know who Millana was nor did I know what energy healing was, but I was very drawn to the idea of it. The training sounded dope in that first post, but I kept scrolling. When I stumbled upon a second post, I went to Millana’s website to learn more then talked myself out of taking action. But I couldn’t stop thinking about it. Spirit kept nudging me, so I said “f*ck it” and applied. And then I got in.

What you have to remember, because it’s an important lesson in following your intuition, is that I had no idea who this chick was, I had no idea what energy healing or breathwork was, I had no desire to become a healer, I had no idea why I signed up. Just about the only thing I knew was that I needed to trust my intuition. I justified it by telling myself that I was meant to be there for my own healing. It would be nothing more than a relaxing weekend filled with deep breaths and ascension. “Ha, yeah, sure Leah! That’s cute.”

The full weight of my foolishness set in on the first day of training during introductions. Everyone seemed to have a clear vision as to why they were there. And then there was me — sitting there with literally no idea what I was getting into. By the time we reached the end of the second day, above and beyond my own personal healing, I realized I was there to actually become a healer. The weight of that hit me like a ton of bricks.

To fully understand why this was such a shock, you have to look at my life in its totality. I was in my early 40s and at the height of my career. I had just secured a senior level position at a top lobbying firm and was making more money than I ever imagined was possible for someone like me. Someone who grew up on food stamps and Section 8 and was the first to graduate from college. I kept thinking to myself, “I’m supposed to do what? After fighting so hard to move up in a cutthroat industry like politics?” What kind of cruel joke was the Universe trying to play on me?

With all that said and to put it bluntly, my experience during Millana’s training was a BEAUTIFUL MESS. Beautiful in that a new side of me was birthed and messy because this new version of me was in direct conflict with the woman I knew myself to be. Yet, somehow, I knew I was exactly where I needed to be.

It took me a minute to get my bearings, so when I got home I meditated, prayed, and connected with my Ancestors… a lot. I allowed myself to really feel into the idea of doing this work and it still felt right. I kept thinking the high of the weekend would wear off but it didn’t. After assessing what it would take to get started I realized it wasn’t really that much of a stretch. Thanks to nudges from my intuition the foundation was already set. I had already started building a personal brand on a whim. I had a website all set up and ready to go and my social media was already transitioning. The only thing I had to do was practice and find my own personal style as an Energy Healer.

I started off by doing sessions for a love offering. I hustled so hard that I ended up having a waitlist of people who wanted to work with me. I spent every weekend doing sessions for friends and friends of friends until it got to the point that I couldn’t keep up with how many people were on my list. That’s when I started getting nudges that it was time to start charging. I didn’t feel very confident at first, but the Universe delivered many blessings and I started attracting paying clients. I’m at the point now where I’m expanding beyond one-on-one sessions and am preparing to launch my online Spirituality Boutique, which will provide tools and resources to help people enhance their Spiritual journeys.

My advice to anyone embarking on this journey is to enter with an open heart. Stay open to life and allow it to show up for you. It’s not always easy and shit gets uncomfortable, but that’s where the magic happens. Push through, stick with it, and stay ready to catch those blessings. On some level, if you’re reading this right now, it’s a manifestation of energy you put into the Universe at some point, so this message is Divinely right for you. BUT, I can’t stress enough that none of it matters without action. If your intuition is guiding you to get trained in Integrative Energy Healing for whatever reason — even if it seems random — my advice to you is to take action. This iteration of you in this lifetime only happens once, so live it fully, fiercely, and unapologetically. Asé!

Leah Barros is a Spiritual Guide living in Sacramento, CA. You can find her on Instagram @iamleahbarros and on her website

For more information about Millana Snow’s Integrative Energy Healing Training, visit her website.